I have come to realize that a lot of my struggles as a mom stem from the fact that I am an introvert and I need quiet time alone to recharge. I love my family, and I love my friends, but I can burn out rather quickly if it goes very long without some peace and quiet. As any mom could tell you, having small children can make it quite difficult to have your space. You are on call 24/7! My girls are both pretty extroverted, and they thrive on spending time with people. A lot of days, “people” is me! They have a need to get into my space as much as I need that space! It’s quite a dance learning the balance to keep us all functioning optimally!
Learning to live enthusiastically, to laugh often, to love deeply is an ongoing challenge for me. Years ago, I hardened my heart so I couldn’t feel the pain so deeply. It worked, but the trade off was that I became unable to feel happiness and joy very deeply, either. God has been working on me in the past years, softening my heart. Learning to thrive and not just survive is hard work. I constantly have to remind myself to look at the bright side and find beauty in the small things, to be passionate and enthusiastic. It’s so easy to fall back into old negative habits, but I will not give up. It might be 1.25 steps forward and 1 step back, but I will persevere.